* get a tattoo by Kat von D
* meet Meryl Streep
* publish a novel
* win a Green Card
in reality this would mean
* get a tattoo (and pretend it's by Kat von D)
* meet someone that at least reminds me of Meryl Streep
* finally finish at least one of my short stories and publish it online somewhere
* just keep on visiting the States on a tourist visa (which is, in fact, GREEN)
Life can be so easy if you realize that your wishful thinking CAN be your reality - even if it's not quite the real deal. Lol. But life is so much easier when you appreciate the things you already have.
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Staying focused
I am incapable of staying focused. Just recently I had to admit to myself that this is by far one of the worst flaws I have. I loose interest so easily. Moreover, I seem to be looking for any distraction I can find sometimes - even if the distraction is something I absolutely dislike.
Even worse, though, is finding distraction in something I absolutely love. Like planning my visit to the States, for example. It's awful. It truly is. Right after booking my flight I can almost instantly feel my "I don't care about anything else anymore" mode coming on! There seems to be nothing that I can do about it. I just cannot stay focused on things I have to do ... like WORK, for example. It's just seems impossible for me to continue working. I get bored with working- even though I have things to do, important things even.
Maybe it's because I am in need of excitement. Or maybe I can't handle a normal day-to-day life. Or maybe both.
Even now, I am rather blogging than working. Great.
But hey - it IS pretty exciting to think about what I will be doing in less than 3 weeks from now when I am finally back in good old Ohio. Ha!
At least I am staying focused when it comes to the States, right!? :)
Even worse, though, is finding distraction in something I absolutely love. Like planning my visit to the States, for example. It's awful. It truly is. Right after booking my flight I can almost instantly feel my "I don't care about anything else anymore" mode coming on! There seems to be nothing that I can do about it. I just cannot stay focused on things I have to do ... like WORK, for example. It's just seems impossible for me to continue working. I get bored with working- even though I have things to do, important things even.
Maybe it's because I am in need of excitement. Or maybe I can't handle a normal day-to-day life. Or maybe both.
Even now, I am rather blogging than working. Great.
But hey - it IS pretty exciting to think about what I will be doing in less than 3 weeks from now when I am finally back in good old Ohio. Ha!
At least I am staying focused when it comes to the States, right!? :)
Thursday, January 7, 2010
2010 will be my year
Happy new year, everyone!!! I hope your transition into the new year was smooth and you had fun celebrating New Year's!?
2010 started off just right for me. I spent New Year's in Kassel where Matthi had 2 shows (which really sucks in a way because I didn't really get to see him at all...but, oh well, whatelse is new!?). After his 2nd show we only had 5 more minutes of 2009 left... I wasn't too sad about this. Even though, 2009 had been pretty good to me in a lot of ways I just couldn't wait until 2010.
Matthi and I went to bed around 3 am. Whereas Matthi fell asleep right away I couldn't sleep at all... I think I finally fell asleep at 4.30 am but had to get up again an hour later because my friend Jeanny and I had decided to go to our annual Bamberg trip together.
Well, what can I say: I was beyond tired but I managed to get to the train station on time. The train, however, didn't make it to the train station on time which had me standing in the blistering cold way too long. But I knew that it would still be all worth it. With a 30 mins delay the train finally made it to meet and greet me. I hopped on it and made my way through all the coaches, squeezing through tons of bags and sleepy people just to find Jeanny who was supposed to be there somewhere. I found her, at last, sleeping in a rather uncomfortable position... it was a cute little scenario to look at and I couldn't help but gently wake her up by wishing her a happy new year.
The train ride was rather uneventful, except for the fact that we missed our connection because of the delay. But we were in high spirits, even though we both were extremely tired. We exchanged christmas-friendship-presents, slept a little and made plans what to do for the weekend.
We got to our hotel around 11 am. Our room was not ready for us yet so we stored our luggage and went on a little spree through town. The problem was that January 1st is a national holiday in Germany so nothing was open really. We found a little cafe right by the Irish Pub that would be our destination for the night. We had a coffee and a piece of pastry and made our way back to the hotel about 2 hours later just to crash on our beds right away. The room was spacious. So was the bathroom and our little balcony. We slept until 5.30 pm. I guess we both really needed it. Lol.
Upon waking up we noticed that we were both hungry. So we looked up a nice Itaölian place and had the best freshly-made pizza of our entire lives. Seriously, you wonderful Americans bhave NO IDEA what a pizza can taste like until you made it to Europe to try a real Italian pizza. What a delicious explosioan of insanely good ingredients! I'm getting hungry again just thinking about it. Hehe.
Anyways, we went to the Irish Pub afterwards and had a couple of beers before heading to "The Green Goose" for some dancing and more beer. WE HAD A BLAST.
The nwxt day pretty much resembled the first day...we met some pretty nice Americans (I told you about the army base in Bamberg, right?) and just had so much fun.
I don't think I would have that much fun in Bamberg with any of my other friends. Jeanny and I have the perfect mixture of fun, sincerity and Germarican nostalgia... it's just perfect and I wouldn't want it to be any other way.
It was the perfect start for the new year!!
2010 will be my year! I can just feel it. In a little bit I will start my own business and will head back home for 4 months. I cannot wait- imagine that! Lol.
Hopefully I will start teaching an English class next month.
I will have the most amazing birthday/farewell bash in March and who knows what will happen later this year!
I'm ecstatic about 2010... and I sure hope YOU ARE TOO!!!
2010 started off just right for me. I spent New Year's in Kassel where Matthi had 2 shows (which really sucks in a way because I didn't really get to see him at all...but, oh well, whatelse is new!?). After his 2nd show we only had 5 more minutes of 2009 left... I wasn't too sad about this. Even though, 2009 had been pretty good to me in a lot of ways I just couldn't wait until 2010.
Matthi and I went to bed around 3 am. Whereas Matthi fell asleep right away I couldn't sleep at all... I think I finally fell asleep at 4.30 am but had to get up again an hour later because my friend Jeanny and I had decided to go to our annual Bamberg trip together.
Well, what can I say: I was beyond tired but I managed to get to the train station on time. The train, however, didn't make it to the train station on time which had me standing in the blistering cold way too long. But I knew that it would still be all worth it. With a 30 mins delay the train finally made it to meet and greet me. I hopped on it and made my way through all the coaches, squeezing through tons of bags and sleepy people just to find Jeanny who was supposed to be there somewhere. I found her, at last, sleeping in a rather uncomfortable position... it was a cute little scenario to look at and I couldn't help but gently wake her up by wishing her a happy new year.
The train ride was rather uneventful, except for the fact that we missed our connection because of the delay. But we were in high spirits, even though we both were extremely tired. We exchanged christmas-friendship-presents, slept a little and made plans what to do for the weekend.
We got to our hotel around 11 am. Our room was not ready for us yet so we stored our luggage and went on a little spree through town. The problem was that January 1st is a national holiday in Germany so nothing was open really. We found a little cafe right by the Irish Pub that would be our destination for the night. We had a coffee and a piece of pastry and made our way back to the hotel about 2 hours later just to crash on our beds right away. The room was spacious. So was the bathroom and our little balcony. We slept until 5.30 pm. I guess we both really needed it. Lol.
Upon waking up we noticed that we were both hungry. So we looked up a nice Itaölian place and had the best freshly-made pizza of our entire lives. Seriously, you wonderful Americans bhave NO IDEA what a pizza can taste like until you made it to Europe to try a real Italian pizza. What a delicious explosioan of insanely good ingredients! I'm getting hungry again just thinking about it. Hehe.
Anyways, we went to the Irish Pub afterwards and had a couple of beers before heading to "The Green Goose" for some dancing and more beer. WE HAD A BLAST.
The nwxt day pretty much resembled the first day...we met some pretty nice Americans (I told you about the army base in Bamberg, right?) and just had so much fun.
I don't think I would have that much fun in Bamberg with any of my other friends. Jeanny and I have the perfect mixture of fun, sincerity and Germarican nostalgia... it's just perfect and I wouldn't want it to be any other way.
It was the perfect start for the new year!!
2010 will be my year! I can just feel it. In a little bit I will start my own business and will head back home for 4 months. I cannot wait- imagine that! Lol.
Hopefully I will start teaching an English class next month.
I will have the most amazing birthday/farewell bash in March and who knows what will happen later this year!
I'm ecstatic about 2010... and I sure hope YOU ARE TOO!!!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Remember when...?
I cleaned my apartment for four hours straight today. I had people looking at my place to maybe rent it, and I figured I might as well show them a clean and neatly organized little place. (Everyone who knows me is aware of the fact that my place is NEVER organized, I live in chaos and I love it!)
I started throwing stuff away (my heart is still bleeding!)and I found tons of stuff that I had almost forgotten about. It was pretty emotional, especially when I found some pictures of my graduation in the States. I looked through them and all of a sudden I almost stopped breathing for a second because I found a picture of me (in my cap and gown), Linds and Pam and Jerry. The minute I saw that picture I seriously had a flashback and I remembered my graduation like it was yesterday. I remember that Pam and Jerry went on a camping trip or something right before my graduation and we had already said our goodbyes (because I left the States pretty much only a couple of days upon graduating). I didn't think I would see them again. My graduation ceremony was over and Linds, Jaron (My goodness, looking at that picture of Poopy and me was just mindblowing- he has certainly changed a lot over the past 8 years!) and I were talking when Pam and Jerry walked in. I remember that I was pretty surprised and I think I said something stupid like, "What are you doing here?" LOL. It was awesome to see them at my graduation and it meant a lot to me. (Still does...)It's so funny to look at that picture of the four of us. I seriously have to remind myself that it was taken 7 years ago!!! Pam and Jerry look EXACTLY the same- I don't know how they did that, but they really do. By the way, there are only two pictures of me and Pam and Jerry- the one at my graduation and a picture we took in 2007 when I stopped by for a couple of hours. It's weird... why aren't there any more pictures???
I also found tons of pictures that Pam took of Linds and I. I remember that day when we took the pictures. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining, it was pretty warm, only a little windy. We had so much fun taking these pictures. Linds and I were still so girly... I mean, we were in school and we had nothing to worry about. The reality of life had not impacted us yet and we could just enjoy that day. No worries, no regrets... it was amazing. Really miss that feeling in a way. We were just crazy, in a good way I might add, we just let go and did stupid stuff and goofed around... I am so glad I have these pictures. It brings back really good memories and the feeling of a happy and easy life. (Whoa, that sounds dramatic...LOL)
I'll keep remembering the "good old days" - and I know there are memories in the making to remember in 8 years. And I am pretty sure I will have the same feelings about my past again = I AM HOMESICK!!! ;)
I guess I will never be too old to be homesick. That's good, at least THAT will stay the same. Hehe.
I started throwing stuff away (my heart is still bleeding!)and I found tons of stuff that I had almost forgotten about. It was pretty emotional, especially when I found some pictures of my graduation in the States. I looked through them and all of a sudden I almost stopped breathing for a second because I found a picture of me (in my cap and gown), Linds and Pam and Jerry. The minute I saw that picture I seriously had a flashback and I remembered my graduation like it was yesterday. I remember that Pam and Jerry went on a camping trip or something right before my graduation and we had already said our goodbyes (because I left the States pretty much only a couple of days upon graduating). I didn't think I would see them again. My graduation ceremony was over and Linds, Jaron (My goodness, looking at that picture of Poopy and me was just mindblowing- he has certainly changed a lot over the past 8 years!) and I were talking when Pam and Jerry walked in. I remember that I was pretty surprised and I think I said something stupid like, "What are you doing here?" LOL. It was awesome to see them at my graduation and it meant a lot to me. (Still does...)It's so funny to look at that picture of the four of us. I seriously have to remind myself that it was taken 7 years ago!!! Pam and Jerry look EXACTLY the same- I don't know how they did that, but they really do. By the way, there are only two pictures of me and Pam and Jerry- the one at my graduation and a picture we took in 2007 when I stopped by for a couple of hours. It's weird... why aren't there any more pictures???
I also found tons of pictures that Pam took of Linds and I. I remember that day when we took the pictures. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining, it was pretty warm, only a little windy. We had so much fun taking these pictures. Linds and I were still so girly... I mean, we were in school and we had nothing to worry about. The reality of life had not impacted us yet and we could just enjoy that day. No worries, no regrets... it was amazing. Really miss that feeling in a way. We were just crazy, in a good way I might add, we just let go and did stupid stuff and goofed around... I am so glad I have these pictures. It brings back really good memories and the feeling of a happy and easy life. (Whoa, that sounds dramatic...LOL)
I'll keep remembering the "good old days" - and I know there are memories in the making to remember in 8 years. And I am pretty sure I will have the same feelings about my past again = I AM HOMESICK!!! ;)
I guess I will never be too old to be homesick. That's good, at least THAT will stay the same. Hehe.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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