My bucket list. [wishful thinking]

* get a tattoo by Kat von D
* meet Meryl Streep
* publish a novel
* win a Green Card

in reality this would mean

* get a tattoo (and pretend it's by Kat von D)
* meet someone that at least reminds me of Meryl Streep
* finally finish at least one of my short stories and publish it online somewhere
* just keep on visiting the States on a tourist visa (which is, in fact, GREEN)

Life can be so easy if you realize that your wishful thinking CAN be your reality - even if it's not quite the real deal. Lol. But life is so much easier when you appreciate the things you already have.

Staying focused

I am incapable of staying focused. Just recently I had to admit to myself that this is by far one of the worst flaws I have. I loose interest so easily. Moreover, I seem to be looking for any distraction I can find sometimes - even if the distraction is something I absolutely dislike.

Even worse, though, is finding distraction in something I absolutely love. Like planning my visit to the States, for example. It's awful. It truly is. Right after booking my flight I can almost instantly feel my "I don't care about anything else anymore" mode coming on! There seems to be nothing that I can do about it. I just cannot stay focused on things I have to do ... like WORK, for example. It's just seems impossible for me to continue working. I get bored with working- even though I have things to do, important things even.

Maybe it's because I am in need of excitement. Or maybe I can't handle a normal day-to-day life. Or maybe both.

Even now, I am rather blogging than working. Great.

But hey - it IS pretty exciting to think about what I will be doing in less than 3 weeks from now when I am finally back in good old Ohio. Ha!

At least I am staying focused when it comes to the States, right!? :)

Living in tomorrow's history books!

There were numerous times during the first 4 months of this year when I just thought [or even said aloud]: "Wow, I feel like I am witnessing something so important that my kids and grandkids will talk about it in their history classes!" I'm sure they will. I mean, seriously, aren't you thinking the same thing?? All this change, the violence, the threats, the economic crisis - yes, even the fall of a certain German minister being an alleged cheater [academics, folks- not sex... but then again, where exactly is the difference? Whoa, my friend SARCASM just woke up!].

And then, today- or last night, US special forces killed Bin Laden.

I highly doubt that this will be the last historic event of 2011. Honestly, I think things are going to be more than ugly now. I understand that for Americans the capture and death of this guy is like a holiday and will help to give peace of mind to a lot of them. But ... you can't truly believe that this will be it.

I am so undecided about this whole matter because my fear of what will happen now is far bigger than any possible joy I could feel. I am praying for all of us, especially for the United States and its people.

I am praying that we will all live to read future history books and that 2011 will not be marked as one of the most horrible and dark years of world history.

I'd appreciate your thoughts on this- please comment! :)

PS: I am NOT trying to make things worse than they are. I am just writing what is going on in my head. I, too, am satisfied that Bin Laden is finally caught. But I am just afraid it won't change a thing but make matters worse.